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Apparently my Charlee Bear is a cook. Who would have thought? In the past week he has made Chinese chicken with crab salad on the side twice, chicken and shrimp tacos, and for my birthday next month he’s wanting to grill steaks and make a meal for us to enjoy together. His food is amazing! 

Gunner will be 11 weeks old tomorrow and growing so fast! He’s doing much better at riding in the truck with us and is more behaved when we take him places than he is at home. We also learned just how much he loves popcorn and he’s not a happy camper when we run out. Lol. We surprisingly found out that our Gunner loves playing in the water outside…yet hates baths. Go figure.

I’m learning to have people around me more often and it’s not that easy. I’ve always kept one or two close friends at a time and pretty much kept to myself for the most part. I would keep family at a distance and it was never anything personal, I just value my time alone and have always been that way. Since I’ve been with Charlee, I’ve been merged into his friends and family and I love them all. It’s just taking some getting use to having someone around almost all the time. I don’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings, but I still feel like I need my alone time once in a while. (Probably more often than you would think.) I can tell Charlee to go hang out with his friends if that’s what he feels like doing and honestly be fine with it. (Never been that secure in a relationship before this one.) I love hanging out with his friends and family. He has managed to surround himself with great people and I couldn’t ask for a sweeter extended family. I just feel like I’ve got a few things to work on within myself to keep from closing myself off for longer periods of time than I should. At this point I’m really missing my best friend who is overseas. I wish she could be here more. I love our long talks on the phone, but we have been close since we were 3 years old and I believe it would do me a lot of good to see her again. I know life happens and we will see each other again though. Just waiting for that day. Charlee is always here for me and goes above and beyond to keep a smile on my face. I’m looking forward to these two important people in my life to meet each other. That will be an incredible day 🙂

The future is looking bright for once in my life and I appreciate everyone in it. I can really see a lot of growth within myself in the past year and I’m so glad I have my friends and family around me to share these milestones with.

Life Lessons For a Reason

I’ve had thoughts running through my mind all day. I honestly can’t believe how far I’ve come in the past few years. I’ve been through trials I never would have thought would be placed in my life. Although, I wouldn’t wish most of them on my worst enemy, I can’t imagine how I would have gotten to this point without them. 

When I think back to my first marriage I realize I was too young and immature to even know what marriage really is. I think I had an idea what I wanted, but lacking the life lessons and problem solving skills I have gained since then, I had no business saying those vows to anyone at the time. I had no idea how to share my life with someone else at the age of nineteen and only recently at the age of 25 have I realized this. 

My second marriage was a tremendous struggle. With all of the abuse and misguided thoughts and actions that came along with just trying to survive, I made a lot of bad decisons. This particular chapter in my life geared me up to fight for myself, realize I deserve better, and most importantly appreciate the people around me more. I learned to rely on God and recognize the signs he sends to show me where I should be.  

When I was near the end of the second marriage, I prayed to God for signs that I would recognize. I needed signs to show me if I should stay in the relationship or leave it. I had signs shown to me telling me I was right where I needed to be at that time and I found peace through the physical and mental abuse that God was still there working with me and he had a plan. All I had to do was sit and wait. 

Everything I went through was for a reason and lead me right where I am now. I am happier than I’ve ever been and I’m with a guy that treats me better than I’ve ever been treated, he trusts in God, and he works hard to make sure we have everything we need while still doing everything in his power to make sure I know I’m loved. For once I’m with someone that shows me all the love in the world and it’s not just him saying, “I love you.” His actions prove it’s true every single day. I never would have dreamed I would meet someone that would choose listening to me and comforting me when I need him over blowing me off and ignoring how I feel. I want to treat him like Gold. I want to do everything I can to keep him happy and be there for him when he needs me. He deserves every happiness in the world just like he has given me. 

Every little detail of my past lead me to the perfect guy for me. I truly believe God was there the entire way. He made sure I learned how to not be as selfish as I once was. God waited until I was ready to rely on him and stop seeking out who I thought I could be happy with. He let me go through tough trials and learn to appreciate the little things people do and the kindness they show. It was necessary for me to learn these things in order to have the happy life I now have. 

I use to wonder where God was and why he would let me get myself into the horrible situations I put myself in over the past 10 years. I now know that he let me be in those moments because I wasn’t following him I was only blaming him and as stubborn as I am, I had to learn everything the hard way. 

Life is so much better now and I gained a close friend who ultimately lead me to the man I really do want to spend the rest of my life with. The man I believe is worthy of me saying those vows once more in front of God and honoring every word of them. I am one lucky girl. I have had the privilege of knowing God is always by side and learning these life lessons early while some may fight against him and never learn them at all. I wouldn’t change a thing about the past, and I’m looking forward to a brighter future.  

Our Gunner

               

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Gunner is our 7 week old puppy. For the first time in my life I had the privilege of watch 9 puppies enter this world. It was amazing. As soon as the third puppy was born, we claimed him as our own. He stayed with his mother dog until he was 2 weeks old. After this I began bottle feeding him and he has been like our baby ever since. Today, Gunner is a spunky, fun, loving puppy. I’m currently working on finding the right puppy food for him. This includes a healthy brand with meat as the main ingredient. We bought him a harness and leash a few hours ago, so we can begin weaning him off of puppy pads and teaching him to use the bathroom outside. He seems to be a fast learner. So far he has learned to sit on command and 50% of the time he will put his paw up to shake our hand on command. We hope to teach him to walk on a leash correctly and not try and pull us behind him. I plan to begin a job search in the next week and may begin to have less time to help teach him things. Never the less, I know I will have to make time  since he relies on us to help him become a well behaved dog that we trust to be out in public with us. Hopefully he will learn to ride in the truck with us and eventually love it. (Gunner currently whines while going for a ride.) He hates baths and tries his best to jump out of the sink while I wash him. I’m not getting my hopes up, but I’m hoping he learns to enjoy them more in the future. We have a lot of work to do before he grows up, and we know the grow pretty fast. Gunner is worth every stitch of time and effort we put in with him and he will be loved and taken care of always! Welcome to our little family Gunner! <3❤

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