It’s easy to feel abandoned when depression or anxiety is near.
I know all too well about this irrational fear.
Friends and family may be close by my side.
I have every reason in the world to feel happy and strive.
Instead I feel anger, distress, pain, or upset.
I feel like I’m drowning and there’s no way to get help.
I don’t have a reason for the way I feel.
My mood swings have become far too surreal.
I know this feeling won’t last forever.
Right now it seems this will go away, never.
The busier I stay the faster I pull through.
I just want to stay home and keep my head above water.
There’s no motivation, there’s no one around.
Why can’t I just go out when I’m not feeling down?
I know this won’t help, being alone.
I don’t have much to say when we talk on the phone.
I will pull through, it will take time, and soon I will be back in my right mind.
I will feel better, on top of the world.
Then with no warning, I will be back at war.
This is a cycle, it’s one I hate, but the good times are well worth the wait!
There’s no giving up, there’s nothing I can do.
I just have to push forward and keep pushing through.